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Bohemian Rhapsody, is that song that good? November rain, can that song be a little unrealistic? Heartbreaker, retarded song, the Guitar solo is tough. Mr. brightside, a not bad song. It ends tonight, a song of memories. Why do songs bring back so many memories, lol. i can remember my old days when i hear different songs, and the feelings of those incidents re-emerge. Friends come and go, once near, now far; once far, now near. Songs really bring back fond and bad memories of incidents that have happened in the past. The entire thing just come back except for the reality. Lets continue with songs, while scrolling down itunes. I guess im bored, cos i dun feel like doing anything. I completed cedar prelims chem just now, and i think im gonna burn tonight, i juz dun wanna close my eyes. Famous last words, juz brings back my NCC days. X japan and All-american rejects brings back the most tangible memories. But i think mr brightside is the song for me now. Its not the lyrics that make me feel good, but the music. My guitar is right beside me now, why dont i feel like playing anything. I feel that ive have let my guitar down because i nvr wipe it everyday and let the rain bully my guitar and play nice stuff wif it after being wif me for such a long time. LOL. zz, im listening to metallica now and it sux at this point of time cos this is not the time for metal. Paramore, crushcrushcrush, that song makes me feel that the singer is saddistic.
Hmm, why do i play dota when i dun feel like playing. This is serious issue cos i feel like im abusing myself. Thats super retarded. Is it the o level stress causing so much problem? SOLUTION!!!THE ONLY WAY!!!CANT U HEAR THAT IM CALLING U!!! I know that im not a crazy guy cos my heart tells me so. That problems i face now is DEADLY, im so vulnerable yet so invulnerable. I can choose from these 2 extremes. Fall so deep or Rise so high that nothing can touch me. Going down sounds so comforting whereas rising high is my nature already. God, why does being depressed or crazy seems so appealing? Juz the thought of being emo can really make one feel "SONG". Hmm, I had chosen to be invulnerable, another failure attempt by the ...
Sigh, I always say things that i dont mean to my mum. Like wanting to go to ITE, when thats not what i want. I told her i score 30 points for prelim which is bullcrap. She bought breakfast for me today, which made me feel so good.
OVERALL feeling NOW: that feeling of nothingless. This sounds so much that im running from reality, wahwahwah! Ill be honet i guess, cos no idiot will accept that there is such feeling of nothingless. Well, feeling empty is another thing all together. OKOK, i feel sad. Ill admit that ive lost everything except my heart. My sadness will go away because my heart, that i will never lose will cause my path to shine brighter and brighter untill the perfect day comes. Thats one thing that is worth rejoicing cos the GAME is not OVER. I guess ill just stand firm, hold my position, not falter, support the whole damn army. I cant afford to fall because its so near, approaching me. Know what, ill stand firm turning my back on those shiitt and ill raise a BANNER "the Lord will not forsake me". Sigh, im still feeling sad. Ill just remember this for today, the Lord make his face shine on me, lift up his countenance on me, and let his peace be with me.
Ill continue to play dota for now and perhaps study later. I can feel sad now too. In the midst of doing all these retarded stuff, i will cling on to U, heart. Just constantly remind me that u are with me while i do those stuff. LOL, i feel stupid yet i feel that i have all the wisdom of the world. Im the beloved aaron of God.
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