Fucked up life, Fucked up day, Fucked up friends, Fucked up situation. Everythings Fucked up and guess what, my God is gonna unfuck me. No church tomorrow, ill go if i can wake up and if my dreams are good.
When school starts for me, its where the double fucking comes. work+study, how fucked up can this be. No weekends for me. O my fucking God, im sooo gonna get pan fried. Oh, JESUS CHRIST, only he can settle it. Jesus is my wisdom, so i will get things right. I hate SHOWHAND. The last time i did that, i got fucked badly by getting blood clotted nipples. And now im in that SHOWHAND situation again. If i win, i win all. If i lose, i get fucked. This time, the bet is reall huge. Larger than the last time. I think i will win.
I call the above an ART. Its real complicated. Its abstract ART. The "ART OF LIFE". No one can understand unless he/she has done some abstract thinking. A piece of paper, mixed with all kinds of colour in a random manner. Now, thats abstract. Im gonna appreciate this piece of ART even though it looks like shit. Know why? Cos its damdamdam expensive. Even if it looks like shit, taste like shit, smell like sheet, feels like shit, appreciation of this ART is neccessary. Ive said "FUCK" a total of 11 times excluding this. Well, thats life. U do things u dont wanna do. Thank God for Christ who died for my sake. Oh Fuck, i need to sleep. No bad dreams, only sweet ones.
[ 11:06 AM ]
muscle pain... Gym for the first time. i hate weights, it makes me short. when i go gym the next time, im not gonna touch the weights cos im gonna grow taller in Jesus name.
Went to meet gerv and Jon after that to buy Jon's i touch. Went to chill out at tanglin after that... freaking walk in the rain again when we were heading back home. This time, it was some light rain. Gerv got Jon pisssed by telling him that he could have gotten his i touch a hundred dollars cheaper after he bought it. LOL, If it was me, i would probably be like.. wth..tell me earlier la. Went home after that.
[ 9:36 AM ]
Under Pressure. I wished i had a reset button. Well, ill have my way when im dreaming. No running away from reality, u shit. Oh God, allow me to use more of my freaking brain. I cant hold out that long, Oh My God. I need to seriously GET A LIFE, a NEW one. I dislike the feeling of being sandwiched, Oh my Fucking God. Brace... High brace...Throw my brain away, I cant think properly for shit now. Aaron is a stupid boy for not asking Jesus to help him. I dun give a shit right now, let me be stupid for 10 minutes first, thn I ask for help. So retarded...But who cares. LET ME BE!!! Why am i regreting doing those things so much now. OMG, did I made the wrong choice? I thought i made those choices in christ. Doubting...Dont care, I will stand in the middle of the shit and wait to die. Maybe ill try something to survive, but ill just wait for God to save me, the most, suffer the consequences. I hate to lose, but i am so so so so, tired. Ahh, rest. I cant even rest properly? Jab me with some miricle drug so that i can rest without thinking of those shit. Favour and wisdom are the most important things. Well, i think im quite done being stupid. Turn to Jesus for he is my wisdom and favour. I dont care if its true or not, but i will just follow blindly. Worth a try, anyway, i think im screwed badly enough already. I really cant bring myself to think that favour and wisdom is that true. All i know is that i follow the bible. Well, just said it out a second ago. I said that Jesus is my favour and wisdom, lets see what will happen to my situation. Im feeling a little better now, but still in the state of staring into blank space for a few seconds occasionally. OMG, since when am I such a weakling. I was being such a stupid kid just now. I shall fear nothing because God is with me. My God had gave his all for me already, and Im gonna take it ALL. I am not going to regret. If i have to pick up shit, Jesus will pick it up with me. No fear, no regrets, only the peace of God. Ahh, Jesus is my wisdom and favour, period. I am a king and priest. I will reign, and anything i touch, becomes blessed. Know what Jesus told me? He said not to fear the shadow of valley of death. He also said that I will succeed and I should expect the best. The results will turn out to be much more then i expected. Ok, i think i will be able to sleep now. BYE.
[ 8:56 AM ]
When I have no mood to play dota, i play relatively well. When i feel like playing, i freaking feed like mad. Just finished a couple of standard game, lost all.
Mighty To SaveSavior,
he can move the mountains,
my God is mighty to save,
he is mighty to save.
Forever,
author of salvation,
he rose and conquer the grave,
Jesus conquer the grave.
First violin lesson today, kinda nice teacher, left an OK impression for me. After lesson was kinda shit, cos Im stuck at home. Freaking Reko only know how to play dota and guess what, i played with him because i am utterly bored. Went home, practiced violin, guitar, and thats it, dota! Tried to screw up a game but I changed my mine halfway through because the game got interesting with Fags like reko buying a divine rapier and giving it to the enemy. Game lasted for 1.333...hrs and we WON. Tried to take a nap after the game but couldnt sleep, so i woke up and play my guitar! Reko is a nice guy but juz that he and I loves to quarrel when it comes to dota at times. After i finished playing my guitar, met up with Gerv and Jon at J8. They were "awesome". Fancy could make up a retarded but extremely hilarious JOKE bout the starbucks ASM. OMG, "Java chip up your ASS!!! Tired, an espresso shot, not enough, take double". I shall not go into full details but it very funny. Went to walk around J8, arcade, looking at clothes...etc. ended up with a lift from Gerv's cab, then took bus 80 home. Played guitar when i reached home. Do i have a life playing guitar? I enjoy playing my guitar but am I doing it too often? lol.
My whole lower body aches like shit. At cage, i strained my muscles due to the long time of not using them. Brought Reko along, Yes, and as usual, that little KID told me how good he is at soccer. Admit hes good, but i rather he keeps his mouth shut. That KID loves to anounce to the whole world that hes good in soccer- ask nicholas, he can be my witness! Well, most of the credit also goes to him when it comes to me playing soccer, because hes the one teaching me how to play.
I want to start work! The feeling of shortage of cash sucks. "JJ", Johovah Jireh(I hope thats the right spelling). Im gonna start taking mathematics tuition from next week onwards.
Screw Relativity and Quantum physics, i understand nothing. Forget it, give up! Wait till im in the mood to learn those again. Hmm, still considering whether to delete those stuff from my com or leave it for future reference.
Jesus loves me this I know
For he will not let my ear get infected with whatever bacteria or viruses. LOL
ByeBye!
[ 9:14 AM ]
Paranoid over my ear, fear of infection. I strongly believe that Im infection free, but still scared. lol
No cash, God is my provider, but i still have nothing with me now... but i still do know when i need, there will be a way.
Lack of sleep these few days, tired but not sleeping. Am i crazy? I dont feel good. I guess these or my dry days. Let me hear more of the word, it may help. Embracing the word= embracing Jesus. Just know that he love me so much...yes!
God will provide. Jesus is my health, prosperity, wisdom, provider for all things.
Turning in real soon... byebye.
[ 10:45 AM ]
Graduation day.
went to school with a multi-coloured hair and was not allowed to go on stage to collect my scroll. What a shit! Burned my notes with M.E. and got caught by brother a.k.a. principal. Told him i was getting rid of my notes and he said that that action could cause a fine on the school... Went to the General office to shred those notes. Hmm, Maris stella high school, is it really a good school? Its no perfect school, but its quite ok, i would say good.
Cant Be Fucked bout anything, and live life like tomorrow is death. This phrase is kinda pleasant. 6 points for O lvls, high chance.
[ 9:46 AM ]
Its gonne be a very very very big mistake that im gonna make. Real big. Well, its gonna get shaken away? Im seriously need to wise up and invest in unshakable things. The "mistake" that im gonna make must never take precedence over unshakable things! God, even if i make this mistake, turn it for my good, I want to learn something from it, but dun let the unshakable things go out of my life. U will make a way for me somehow...
U will make a way some how either...
Be it that mistake or some other stuff, u will make a way. Even if i fail badly in all that i do, lose everything, u will not forsake me, u will be with me, u are my everything. I trust in my God because i know he loves me.
Its SS tomorrow!!!
[ 10:06 AM ]
